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One day I decided to quit…
quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality… I wanted to quit
my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me…
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good
care of them.  I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on
the bamboo." He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.  But I would not quit.  In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.  Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant…But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.  It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.  I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots". "I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don’t compare yourself to others."
He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.  Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.  Never, Never, Never Give up. For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.
Don’t tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!
Heavens door open this morning, God asked me… My CHILD…  what can I do for you?" and I said "Daddy please protect and bless the one reading this message.

    I finally understood what it means to really have the fire to Follow God. And honestly, I feel that mine is fading.. It is not God who is leaving me, but the other way around. And my heart is really filled with sorrow.. How can this be? From a man who was so passionate to serve God, to worship Him, to pray to Him and to reach out to people for Him to a man who is sleeps in on Sundays and busy finishing his assignments then praying and serving…
    I really do feel ashamed when I thought of this… It might not be fading but static… I am so not sure… But I do know one thing, I feel so isolated, so cold, so tiring… I need You Lord… I wanna come back into your life. I can still feel you holding my hands and blessing me with many things, especially making friends and finishing my assignments in time.. You gave me strength, You gave me love.. You gave me beautiful places to see and to experience the life to be an architect. But I gave nothing back.. I feel so bad. So guilty, my conscience is ripping me apart.. Conscience  is the thing that  u  instilled in me the  most.   Its  my character,  its who  I am…

Lord I pray, HUMBLY pray… that you show me the light, show me the way, back into the streets of Gold, your precious path of love, kindness, fellowship and prayer… Be with me I pray in the time when I need you the most. Amen..

Life, does anyone take it seriously these days? Do they take it as a game? As a whatever la…. You get my point. Those who smoke, drink (Alcohol till they are wasted), doing drugs, gambling, joining senseless gangs, get into fight or imprisoned are those who I think are wasting their precious lives. Isn’t it to see that while they are sorta "enjoying" themselves, it is those who are close to them that are suffering the most. Seeing your love one wasting their life away is just heart breaking.

    Life to me, has been challenging, happy, sad, understanding…….. Many more usual emotions we feel each day. Life is Love: God gave us all people who care for us and who loves us. Even if there are no humans loving us, Our Heavenly Father still loves us very very very very much. No matter how we threat ourselves.  Sometimes we are the ones who don’t want to open our eyes to see that God already send people into our lives and that they love us. A dad might be fierce but thats how he show he loves us. He wants to be someone in the society, in the world so that we can survive in the future. A mother might nag but thats just cause they care. They wan to ensure you don’t repeat the stupid thing you just did.  Brothers and sisters quarrel because it teaches you that there are many people in the world that are like your brother or your sister so you need to learn to control your temper and your cool.

Ok,till this point I do hope you understand what I am getting at.  Another thing bout life is that many people complains bout it. Bout how they don’t have a Girl/Boy-friend, bout school (the teachers and principal), bout College life (assignments, not enough sleep,bla bla bla… I myself doing that), bout work… and the list goes on…Is that all life have to give? Complaint? I don’t think so. If life is just full of complaints then it is is plainly said sucks!

    For me, life should be positive and be full. Not full of crap, but of joy, contentment and of the happiness of having friends and family. And getting that natural high… Yep, you can get high on happiness and of the joy around you. No need any drugs or alcohol to do that for me. I don’t mean that you can’t drink but do not drink till u go mabuk and laughing your head of and doing stupid things.  People think that natural high is very hard to achieve.. The secret to it is as my course-mates say.. BE POSITIVE,TEAM POSITIVE.. and the whole class will laugh like crazy.. Yep, Be positive in life.. When troubles come your way, SCREAM IT OUT!! just for a minute, Calm down then get on with life… Smile and say, I AM OKAY!!

    Another thing is supposed to be not boring…. God created this world so that you have many things to do… You don’t need money to have fun.. Learn a skill or something. Read, write, draw, online…. Don’t keep saying that everything is boring. *SLAP* Wake up…. Do something useful for a change… And I don’t mean flirting or making babies……. Unless you are married that is.. Learn how to cook or bake. Come on guys!! You can do it… Gals, you don’t have a choice… Blerkz…

    My advise for this entry is to be positive, enjoy life and not destroying it… Alcohol can lead to death… Thats what I learn this week… And the devastation that it brings… To both the family and friends…

So till my next entry… God bless…. Oh yea… This blog will be mainly used for thoughts. For how I am.. Visit http://aaroncwl.blogspot.com/