Aaron’s Blog!!

    Well,this blog goes out to all those who are wondering what is maturity and whether they are mature or not.  This is my thoughts ok? and it mayb or may not be a good advise but do please listen to wat i gotta say.
    Some ppl might think that how people act is the way to judge a person’s maturity.  BUt for me, this has nothing to do with maturity. I can act childish in front of my friends or little kids just to have fun. SOme might call me immature but the point is,i might not act like this in front  of others that either are older than me, the people i respect or those who do not me.  SO in contrast,these people will think that i am mature for my age and so on.  U see where i am getting at?  I remember one pastor preached about this b4 , that we humans wear many layers of mask. 
Its not right for us to do so but we are humans, we are not perfect. BUt we need to beware that the mask we are wearing will not bring us to our downfall.
    Who we compare ourself with is also not one way to tell our maturity. Yep, thats true. Wanna know y? Hmm… let me think how i shud explain this properly. While learning english last year,i learned form my lecturer that we only see what we wanna see and hear what we wanna hear. We will block off the things that we do not agree with and forget about it. I agree with that.  Every time i try to negotiate or ask for advise, i only agree with the ones that i myself think is right and totally ignore the others which sometimes seem harder. Its the same with actions.  We sometimes only see the negative side of a person and not see the complete package. SOmetimes we see from our first expression that the person is childish and bla bla bla, everything negative but fail to see his mature side. True?
    Another one, age does not influence maturity. Maybe a little but not completely… Ppl always associate me as :"Wow, u r turning 20 d, very mature oh, all grown up oh."  My gosh, i havent even finish my degree programme. Mayb i am a bit mature because of responsibilities but when u take away those responsibilities, u will see a child in me, still love to play, to have fun…… and etc.  I still love to go online and chit chat and what so ever… You can also see it in adults, u give them a night free from their children and work and u see, drunken, laughing adults… This is so true you know. No kidding. U can see some "Datuk" who is rich and famous hanging out with young gals and they are looked up too… Get my point? HAHA…correct me if i am wrong.
    OK, here is what i think being mature is. Being mature is knowing when to do the right thing, to know when to act what age, to play when its time to play, to take responsibilities and equal their time to do do other things besides work and home.  Being mature is of course being wise. Being wise in what a person can be write in their blog, being careful not to hurt anyone, being careful not to hurt ppl with our actions, being careful not to hurt ppl with our words.  That is what it takes to be mature. For me that is….

P.s.: imagine those who suffer from old ppl syndrome, who act like children all over again… THey might once be considered mature…. OH OH OH… it doesnt mean i am mature by writing this blog….. blerkz

    Its almost 3 am and yes, this has became accustomed for me to sleep so late.  I have class at 8 later.  The problem is, i cant sleep.  Due to the the mountain load of assignments, i have to stay up this late for the past one month.  Guiltyly to say, i haven been to church for 3 weeks and i am kinda feeling guilty.  The weekends are the only time i get to sleep as long as i want but that i also couldn’t achieve.  The constant stress is keeping me awake and my natural body alarm only allows me to sleep at the max of 6 hours and i decided to just continue doing my assignments.  No i did not put my assignments to the last minute.  I just have lots to do.  Been praying about it.. Asked God to forgive me for being so weak in faith and also negletingto read his word.. This is one of the guilt which i cant let go off. Please pray for me..
    Thank God that he finally helped me by letting me keep my nerves and i got to finish two of my so called major assignments. Another two to finish and one is due this friday.. I instilled in my mind that no matter what, i am going to church this sunday. Not of duty but because i long for theword and also for the fellowshipthat i dearly missed. I haven been to close with anyone yet and am still considered as anew comer.  I had to tell myself not to get too involved. Is that bad? I am so comfused in this matter for i am so caught up in my assignments.. SOmeone please help me….
    Oh yea, i finally got the time to listen to Christian music again and it gave methe joy and peace that i love so much. SOmetimes while driving, i will blast some of the christian song like take it all. HAHA… it feels so much better after singing it.  Holidays is still weeks away. Please come faster…  but if it does come faster, means my exam is near too… oh no…..  But who cares… Only one paper…
    Hmmm… while i am so bz, I found that this song is so calming. Heard it at Acts… meaningful, powerful and encouraging…. Its called assuredly yours

Assuredly Yours (Key B-C)
Paradise Live - Set Me Free

Verse
All that I am is in You
All that I seek is to follow You
I run to Your side when You call
There is the hope I am longing for

PreChorus
Just to be by your side
There is hope in my life
There is no greater freedom I’ve found

Chorus
Take my life
And all that I have to give
Take my world
Just inhabit all of it
Take my dreams
Make me assuredly Yours

And indeed i am assurely Gods.. It does soundlike a love song, i admit,but it is a love song to God.. FOr me, that is the most important. LOVE the pre-chorus, there is indeed hope in my life and God’s love is beyond everything..  BEing bz from God made me realize something, everytime i feel even more burdened or stressed, he send angles to help me and encourage me.. For example, my mum who surprisingly call me to take a break and go out to have fun or my girlfriend who insists that i get a good nights rest and take abreak once in awhile and not to engross myself in my assignments. And also bryan and geraldine, who makes me laugh with their jokes and actions.  It helps. And i feel that that is the sign from God that he is there caring for me. OH yea.. and friends like Cheng Ing and Patricia who keeps inviting me back to church…(I will go,dun worry) and also lea,who send me a website for a daily dose of God’s word… HAHA… just realized, this is all God’s work and i just noticed. Weird huh, how God works in our life. Well,this is one ofmy testimonies.. Pray for me as always and i do appreciate that.. God bless u all, those who are praying for me. u can msg me if u have any prayer request. Or send me bible quotes which inspires u. Mayb that will helpme with getting daily doses of God’s word.. Thanks..

Love,
Aaron

Dear God,
    I pray for delicate hands like urs.. Take away all the strength when i am drawing so the tip of my expensive pen wouldn’t be bent till i cant use it… U created all things so delicately and so beautifully (hem hem… like the beautiful ppl u put in my life). I just pray that my hands will be soft (not the niang type) but a pair of hands so that i can create wonderful buildings (not like the apartments which fell in Malaysia - Not blaming anyone).
    Lord, change my stubby, short fingers.  From one’s which creates dissaterous models


>>>>> like this one

Into beautiful and unique buildings…….

>>> like these…

    Lord, sometimes I wonder am I getting it right. Its hard really. But instill the positiveness into my mind.. Dun allow praises to raise me above the clouds but to humble meso that i can do better.. Also remind me that What I think is nice to me might not beto my lecturers.. HAHA… Well, tats life huh? I cant please everyone… I pray for a creative mind beyond all wonders so that i can design smth which can wowwwww not just me but to everyone in the world.. But please not to woe anyone.
    I understand it is the path u r leading me into O’  LOrd… Dun Leave my side.. Oh wait… U wont… I pray that "I" will not leave u… U r my guide….

Thanks…
Aaron.
With love… ;P